After two years

It has been a long long while since I'm gone , feel good that got a sudden feeling on writing some feelings deep inside my hearts .

People comes and goes , after few months of my break up , I realised that move on is not easy . You may can do everything to forget someone but memories dont leave you so easily .You have to go through so many mood swings .Sometimes you feel have moved on and at the same time you can feel the pain in the heart that is all about yesterday . Even after trying sk hard , you dont stop missing them .You miss them in each and every moment but you are hiding the truth from your friends that you can still feel the same . You might hate them for everything bad they did to you , but you still fail to hate them because heart knows that how much it loved .You can feel then in songs , movies , streets and mall you guys have gone through basically almost everywhere .You wish to talk to them and want to smile like before .

Truth is that it's the only solution and healing .Fighting with your own thoughts and reminding your kind the reasons for unlocking them . Life goes on like this . We learn , we realised we moved on .
Time passes by and you lean to live with your loneliness. Soon you start finding peace by realising all the thoughts are useless.  You soon realised thatvoeace is no in any person or relationship.  It was always inside you but you wasted your time finding somewhere else you lost it .

You tell the whole world that you are silent and feel numb . You tell yourself the lies that you are not into them and you are in love with yourself.  Then why you see them in your dreams ? Why every face reminds you of them?Why you suddenly start crying at middle of the night? Because truth is you are only learning to live without them and that's what we call moving on . When you know that being with them is not the right thing and also unloving them is something impossible then it hurts you deep .

Trust the process of healing. It is a time taken process and depends on your acceptance process , but dont lie to yourself accept it if your can unlove the person. Its is sign that you need to forgive . Forgive to forget , some times temporary person teach your permanent lesson .

After two years , finally I have put it down but sometimes it may show up and all you need to do is deal with it a smile and moved on because there is always a better arrangement from the god . Time will tell .

Good night people . Xoxo

Adult?

i'm enough age for voting now , i'm legal to enter to casino now but guess what i'm still prefer to being young again and wondering what would happened in my future . It already happened (being adult) without even realist it .

A very worth book to being read i have bring along lately is The Greatness Guy , a very professional lawyer share bout his life , the way to communicate with people . I'm still half way learnt . Looking at some old friends update and realize every1 is just living good .

It's already 12 now , a dizzy yet sleepless night .Not sure what even im doing now .

good night peeps @.@

What if the world is not an end

21st dec 2012 will be end of the years , rumors are everywhere but it has become a truth when NASA proves that there will be no light from 22th till 24th dec and sun will be rising again on Christmas .

People has their own religious because they have their own believe , so do i . 

There will be a light appear when there is a hope there , watched rise of guardians last night .

Its kinda short but at least there are some lessons behind the movie , always believe , carrying hope no matter how worse the situation is .

Top 10 things i have to change 

1) Connect with Others. People who feel connected are happier and healthier--and may even live longer.

2) Stay Positive. People who regularly focus on the positive in their lives are less upset by painful memories.

3) Get Physically Active. Exercise can help relieve insomnia and reduce depression.

4) Help Others. People who consistently help others experience less depression, greater calm and fewer pains.

5) Get Enough Sleep. Not getting enough rest increases risks of weight gain, accidents, reduced memory and heart problems.

6) Create Joy and Satisfaction. Positive emotions can boost your ability to bounce back from stress.

7) Eat Well. Eating healthy food and regular meals can increase your energy, lower the risk of developing certain diseases and influence your mood.

8) Take Care of Your Spirit. People who have strong spiritual lives may be healthier and live longer. Spirituality seems to cut the stress that can contribute to disease.

9) Deal Better with Hard Times. People who can tackle problems or get support in a tough situation tend to feel less depressed.

10) Get Professional Help if You Need It. More than 80 percent of people who are treated for depression improve.
will end my post with WHAT IF THE STORM ENDS  by snow patrol
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_w59IR1nlqE

boss

My boss , it has been awhile i know her.
i nvr told u that i have some of your pics in my laptop , u always asked am i really that fat?
i just wanna tell u , u are not fat at all ! just simply be yourself , eat what you want , live the way u want .
life is to short for asking permission to do this and that .

If to use a adjective to describe you i would have chose sun
cause you light up my life,
yeah , it's true that i still can survive without the sun
but my life wouldn't be as colorful as under the sun .

thank you for being with me during my toughest week ,
thank you for picking up my midnight call while i need someone ,
thank you for bringing me to Malacca and meeting some new friends ,
thank you for insisting driving in the rainy day even u got night blindness ,
thank you for bringing light to my world no matter what's the weather ,
thank you so much ......

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LYLBmKqOaWk&feature=share

silent treatment

I do not understand what the silent treatment is all about....I do not understand when someone wants to either end something or tell someone something they may not want to hear why it is so damn hard to just say it. Just spit it out. Why would you ignore someone ? It is unfair and wrong. Be respectful and say what you have to say.

Then this person might look like they are a bit off their rocker while they send messages and call ...trying to find out what happened and where it went wrong , and just why in the world you might be ignoring them and avoiding them. All it would take is one call.....one explanation...one.The silent treatment or being ignored are two things that I do not deal with well. I am the type of person who needs to get a situation resolved right away..there is no need to leave someone sitting and wondering what is going on or why they were shut out because this makes things worse. It also makes everything that was said in the course of the particular relationship seem like it was BS.

I've finally decided to give up on someone who drains my energy. I gave somebody a second chance at the start of the year but they have let me down again, i'm now being ignored. I sent my last message to  her that and will stick by this. It makes me feel a little sad but i need to move away from from her who makes me feel rubbish.

It has been few days that we have had not contacting each others , i not sure how many days exactly because it seems like already for ages . Without her i still have to move on , time never stops for anyone .

I'm sorry i'm so limited 

You told me that you will feel more comfortable to be without me .all I want is you to be happy. I

Since the day you left, I always hope to know how are you and how's your life. Are you living happily now? 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CE8OBInZMl8&feature=share

佛说五百年的回眸才换来今生的擦肩而过

这句话是从这个故事来的吧：
有个年轻美丽的女孩，出身豪门，家产丰厚，又多才多艺，日子过得很好。
媒婆也快把她家的门槛给踩烂了，但她一直不想结婚，因为她觉得还没见到她真正想要嫁的那个男孩。
直到有一天，她去一个庙会散心，于万千拥挤的人群中，看见了一个年轻的男人，不用多说什么，反正女孩觉得那个男人就是她苦苦等待的结果了。
可惜，庙会太挤了， 她无法走到那个男人的身边，就这样眼睁睁的看着那个男人消失在人群中。
后来的两年里，女孩四处去寻找那个男人，但这人就像蒸发了一样，无影无踪。

女孩每天都向佛祖祈祷，希望能再见到那个男人。
她的诚心打动了佛祖，佛祖显灵了。
佛祖说：“你想再看到那个男人吗？”
女孩说：“是的！我只想再看他一眼！”
佛祖：“你要放弃你现在的一切，包括爱你的家人和幸福的生活。”
女孩：“我能放弃！”
佛祖：“你还必须修炼五百年道行，才能见他一面。你不后悔么？”
女孩：“我不后悔！”

女孩变成了一块大石头，躺在荒郊野外，四百多年的风吹日晒，苦不堪言，但女孩都觉得没什么，难受的是这四百多年都没看到一个人，看不见一点点希望，这让她都快崩溃了。
最后一年，一个采石队来了，看中了她的巨大，把她凿成一块巨大的条石，运进了城里，他们正在建一座石桥，于是，女孩变成了石桥的护栏。
就在石桥建成的第一天，女孩就看见了，那个她等了五百年的男人！
他行色匆匆，像有什么急事，很快地从石桥的正中走过了，当然，他不会发觉有一块石头正目不转睛地望着他。

男人又一次消失了，再次出现的是佛祖。
佛祖：“你满意了吗？”
女孩：“不！为什么？为什么我只是桥的护栏？如果我被铺在桥的正中，我就能碰到他了，我就能摸他一下！”
佛祖：“你想摸他一下？那你还得修炼五百年！”
女孩：“我愿意！”
佛祖：“你吃了这么多苦，不后悔？”
女孩：“不后悔！”

女孩变成了一棵大树，立在一条人来人往的官道上，这里每天都有很多人经过，女孩每天都在近处观望，但这更难受，因为无数次满怀希望的看见一个人走来，又无数次希望破灭。
不是有前五百年的修炼，相信女孩早就崩溃了！
日子一天天的过去，女孩的心逐渐平静了，她知道，不到最后一天，他是不会出现的。
又是一个五百年啊！最后一天，女孩知道他会来了，但她的心中竟然不再激动。
来了！他来了！他还是穿着他最喜欢的白色长衫，脸还是那么俊美，女孩痴痴地望着他。
这一次，他没有急匆匆的走过，因为，天太热了。
他注意到路边有一棵大树，那浓密的树荫很诱人，休息一下吧，他这样想。
他走到大树脚下，*着树根，微微的闭上了双眼，他睡着了。
女孩摸到他了！他就*在她的身边！
但是，她无法告诉他，这千年的相思。她只有尽力把树荫聚集起来，为他挡住毒辣的阳光。
千年的柔情啊！
男人只是小睡了一刻，因为他还有事要办，他站起身来，拍拍长衫上的灰尘，在动身的前一刻，他抬头看了看这棵大树，又微微地抚摸了一下树干，大概是为了感谢大树为他带来清凉吧。
然后，他头也不回地走了！就在他消失在她的视线的那一刻，佛祖又出现了。

佛祖：“你是不是还想做他的妻子？那你还得修炼……”
女孩平静地打断了佛祖的话：“我是很想，但是不必了。”
佛祖：“哦？”
女孩：“这样已经很好了，爱他，并不一定要做他的妻子。”
佛祖：“哦！”
女孩：“他现在的妻子也像我这样受过苦吗？”
佛祖微微地点点头。
女孩微微一笑：“我也能做到的，但是不必了。”
就在这一刻，女孩发现佛祖微微地叹了一口气，或者是说，佛祖轻轻地松了一口气。
女孩有几分诧异，“佛祖也有心事么？”
佛祖的脸上绽开了一个笑容：“因为这样很好，有个男孩可以少等一千年了，他为了能够看你一眼，已经修炼了两千年。”

佛曰：前世五百次的回眸才换得今世的擦肩而过，
那么，我的前世是积攒了多少次的回眸啊，才换得与你相识相知？

@.@

i must have been torching my body very well these days , aiks must take care

I am still determined to be cheerful and happy, in whatever situation I may be; for I have also learned from experience that the greater part of our happiness or misery depends upon our dispositions, and not upon our circumstances.