After two years

It has been a long long while since I'm gone , feel good that got a sudden feeling on writing some feelings deep inside my hearts .

People comes and goes , after few months of my break up , I realised that move on is not easy . You may can do everything to forget someone but memories dont leave you so easily .You have to go through so many mood swings .Sometimes you feel have moved on and at the same time you can feel the pain in the heart that is all about yesterday . Even after trying sk hard , you dont stop missing them .You miss them in each and every moment but you are hiding the truth from your friends that you can still feel the same . You might hate them for everything bad they did to you , but you still fail to hate them because heart knows that how much it loved .You can feel then in songs , movies , streets and mall you guys have gone through basically almost everywhere .You wish to talk to them and want to smile like before .

Truth is that it's the only solution and healing .Fighting with your own thoughts and reminding your kind the reasons for unlocking them . Life goes on like this . We learn , we realised we moved on .
Time passes by and you lean to live with your loneliness. Soon you start finding peace by realising all the thoughts are useless.  You soon realised thatvoeace is no in any person or relationship.  It was always inside you but you wasted your time finding somewhere else you lost it .

You tell the whole world that you are silent and feel numb . You tell yourself the lies that you are not into them and you are in love with yourself.  Then why you see them in your dreams ? Why every face reminds you of them?Why you suddenly start crying at middle of the night? Because truth is you are only learning to live without them and that's what we call moving on . When you know that being with them is not the right thing and also unloving them is something impossible then it hurts you deep .

Trust the process of healing. It is a time taken process and depends on your acceptance process , but dont lie to yourself accept it if your can unlove the person. Its is sign that you need to forgive . Forgive to forget , some times temporary person teach your permanent lesson .

After two years , finally I have put it down but sometimes it may show up and all you need to do is deal with it a smile and moved on because there is always a better arrangement from the god . Time will tell .

Good night people . Xoxo